Monday, January 25, 2010

First Time to Baldy!

The kids and I finally made our way to the snow this year. After a year of complaing and asking everyone under the sun to take the drive with me I finally just did it. With no plan, no agenda just a map, myself the kids and my little cousin Aaron who just turned 14 made our way to Mt. Baldy. I used to be an avid skiier back in the day, Mammouth, Big Bear, Tahoe at least 2-3 trips a winter was the norm. So to get my kids on snow was a must for me. Peter not being a snow guy - kept pushing it off my calendar. I made 2 prior plans with reservations and all and each time they got kaboshed by Peter. So with no plans the kids and I woke up this past weekend and I just started packing it up, from hot coco, p&j's, chips, fruit and snow gear off I was 2 hours later to Mt. Baldy. I had never been to Baldy and must say I was pleasently surprised how nice it was. We didn't get very high up, but high enough for the kids to sled around and for us to hike through a few paths. It was so beautiful I really just sat and watched them fall in love with the Mountains and the Snow as I did so many years ago. My parents are not much for the outdoors so I discovered this love later in my early teens and twenties. Now that I'm a parent I still love the outdoors maybe not as active as I used to be but still appreciate the beauty of our Mountains, Beaches and Lakes. My kids will learn to skii and will have this sport a part of their winter activities, can't waite to take them camping in the spring. Oh so many things I want to share with them, no time like the present. Enough with putting things off till tomorrow or waiting for someone to join me, I was mostly looking out for the kids in case the drive was hard on me. Nothing a good cup of coffee cant fix and of course a good night sleep and preperation. I'm already planning our first skii trip this February to Big Bear....look out Summit her comes JoAnn and her Peeps!

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

A New Year a New Way

With the holidays behind along with 2009, I am looking forward to a fresh and new start for 2010. The past year has been challenging, with PeterRay entering school, Sophia spreading her wings a bit more and Peter & I as parents dealing with life and its tribulations I am hopeful 2010 will shed some light on all of us. So with that I am happy to say I've started 2010 with me out of the kids bed. For those of you who know me, know I have been sleeping with both my babies from the time they were born. I managed to move my spare king size bed into their bedroom and make comfy of it for the the three of us. Just as i tried to blame them for wanting to sleep with me this past week proved me wrong. This new venture actually started off over a year ago with bedding, decorations and paint color. I dragged my feet as I usually do when I really don't want to confront the truth, I just didn't know the truth as clear as I do now.
With PeterRay being on a 2 week brake from school by week 2 we started getting a little cabin fever and with no plan I started moving furniture out and before I knew it I was painting the room blue and pink. By day 2 the 2 twin beds were put into place along with the year old bedding, canapies, throw rugs and so on. Although everything seemed to fall into place I strung it out for another couple of days having the kids sleep in our spare room which now housed the king size bed; my excuse was the room still smelled like paint?? Finally this past Sunday PeterRay asked when he was going to be able to sleep in his new room and bed. I felt horrible, felt like I've been holding him back, felt like I'd been complaining about sleepless uncomfortable nights that were really the best nights of my life. So this past Sunday as eight o'clock came around I tucked my little angels into their newly decorated bedroom with twin beds made up special for each of them with their favorite blankets and all. To my surprise they fell asleep without a peep, I on the other hand didn't sleep very well. I kept checking in on them, waiting for one of them to wake and ask for me to join him or her. But no doing did this happen, it was me all alone at 12am, 2am, 4am and on. By 6:30am the kids woke up happy, refreshed and as if they'd been sleeping without me forever. I on the other hand was sleepy and a bit sad, my babies were more than ready to sleep on their own in their own room, more ready than I think I will always be.
I don't usually make a new years resolution, but maybe this year I will attempt letting go, try watching instead of leading, try listening instead of telling, try accepting instead of denying. I want to be a better Mother, Wife, Friend, Daughter, Niece, Cousin and Human Being. This all comes from the core of my soul I guess, my Paster read some beautiful scripture this past week some of it I don't know if I understood as clear and I'd like but what I did understand was in order for one self to be rounded in god you have to walk a straight life; no detours. I am attempting to walk as straight as I know possible, it's not easy and I guess thats the test, how much are you willing to put into this so that you teach your children who you are and who you want them to be....

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